I miss you so much. I dont think i have ever missed someone this badly before. Every night before i go to bed, you are the one i think about. Every single night. Do you know how tiring and helpless that makes me feel? The fact that i cant force myself to stop thinking about you makes me lose my mind. And when i eventually fall asleep, you appear in my dreams. Every single night. Then i wake up to disappointment because i realized it wasnt real. Do you know how hard it is to see you in my dreams but not in person? Especially under all of this shit that has happened. I never felt so lonely without you. I need you back in my life before. I cant the separation any longer. Its tearing me apart. To the point where i cant find a reason to be happy. I want you in my life and im willing to do anything to get you back to how it was. And the most aggravating thing in the world is that i cant even tell you. Thats whats truly haunting me. Soon though,
I hope. I have hope.